As of this afternoon, I’ve officially left the cubicle life behind in search of greener pastures. It was a surreal moment walking out of the office this afternoon, desk plant in one hand, car keys in the other, marching onward to a future that is wide open. In the weeks leading up to that moment, I wasn’t sure how I would actually feel when I made that final walk; but the first thing I did when I walked out the door was breathe a (literal) sigh of relief. If my life were a movie, The Supremes would have been playing in the background as I made that final trek to my car.
I was thinking earlier this week about how I ended up at this particular juncture in my life. I’ve always been a play-it-safe kind of gal with a high aptitude for uncertainly avoidance. I realized that when we follow the path of least resistance, we always find ourselves exactly where we ‘should’ be, yet with no discernible idea of how we actually got there. Its sort of like taking a hike, and spending too much time reading the map instead of enjoying the view. When there are no roadblocks or detours that mark the way, we get to the summit and realize that the journey was wholly unremarkable. This is one of those big detours off of the beaten path with the hope of a spectacular view (or else I’ll get eaten by a bear instead. Kidding, sort of).
The past few months have been an absolute roller coaster up highs and lows, and I’m certain that the new few months will feel much the same. I have SO much to learn, and I know that many of these lessons will be hard. But as they say, it builds character. When I look back at my life, I know that moments that defined who I am today were the moments that were most difficult while I was going through them. Regardless of the outcome, this detour will define me.